I saw this quote on someone's Facebook and I thought this is the perfect quote to start my blog. I leave for Italy soon. It is close enough where I can start counting the hours. Less than 24 even and I just checked-in from my bed. I am so excited to get away and meet myself again. I recently cut my hair slightly different (let's not get too carried away), got new glasses, and got purple highlights in my hair (and if you haven't seen me, trust me they are more transparent than noticeable, classy highlights if you will) and am excited to introduce the new Elizabeth to Europe. For those of you that I have taken into my confidence, you will know that for many years I hid behind my past, waiting for a dark chapter of my life to close which after 8 years the situation resolved itself and granted me closure. It's taken me a long time to get back to the lovable, bubbly, smart ass most of you knew so long ago but I'm here now and I am here to stay. For those of you that don't know what I'm talking about you all still gave me the same two words of advice-indulge yourself. My reply to you is-I will.
The plan is to go work in Italy for three months. My contract starts June 10th and ends September 15th. While in Europe I plan to travel to Portugal, Sweden and England to discover my roots with friends, family or by myself for another month and apply to any jobs I qualify for.
Many of you, friends and family have provided me with the encouragement, love and support to push me forward and make it easy for me to leave with the thought of not coming back for a long while. To those of you, I never said goodbye, it's arrivederci, see you soon! Some of you, you don't know it yet but I said goodbye for good. I said it in a whisper as I turned back and looked at you, or the building that I associate with you ready to move on without you in my life. Some of you though, said goodbye to me too. And now, I say it to those of you, now, out loud that have hurt me, used me, or we simply grew up and went our own way, "goodbye, thank you for the life lessons that I will take with me, best of luck." And yet, I haven't covered all of you. There are a few, a very select few of you who, I don't know what will happen to our friendship. It can go either way, yet the thought of never talking to you again scares and saddens me to the point that I shrug and say que sera, sera, (whatever will be will be) and as I finish my packing and prepare to go to Europe for the first time, I find myself at peace ready for the unknown with you and with the next 4 months.
I never thought I would say this but USC has been my life for the last four and a half years. I have worked and lived it way more than I ever expected. I met so many amazing people that have helped restore my faith and energy and healed me in ways I never thought possible. Thank you USC.
P.S. Not everything will be so mushy but I had to say what I was thinking. Keep checking back!
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